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[16 Feb 2004|08:09pm]
if i did fall. this nite that airwaves held my soul in a blankets embrace. so many lights went out in all directions the resolve of 300 passengers facing imminent death all engines stop me now, all sounds cease to matter im comin down in a blaze of glory and everyone else knoews it too we are gonna light up the forrest and wolves will know us by the whites in our eyes if quiet anguish and sheer terror were the new fashion we'd all be fucking kings of new york no city lights, just fire in our hearts nose dive to the wet ground below can you feel my last breath as it fogs the window, are you gonna notice me in pieces? the dark is all that we see its all we see no one makes a sounds, but collective sighs surruond us impact is near, share a hug, but dont worry, it wont hurt i see them all smiling licking there white fangs waiting for us to quit breathing.
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[07 Feb 2004|06:21pm]
tonite calls for
hoots
hollers
steam
and
love.

and me passed out [drunk?]
on somebodies floor.


oh the beauty of betraying myself...


g'nite yall.
3 Like Violence, You Have Me

[06 Feb 2004|10:53am]
[ mood | sad ]

my "uncle" died 3 days ago
found out this morning
he shot himself...

another loved one lost by suicide.

kind of makes you think, aye?

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[31 Jan 2004|03:24pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

i'm feeling very odd

fuck you all.


i've got a number in my phone
and a check on its way

in a feeble attempt to make everyone happy
i'll try to leave.

later...

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[29 Jan 2004|03:20pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

telephone conversations have never been so great.
especially while im half asleep
and the only thing i can hear is your voice.

its
wonderful.


$373
fuck.

hmmf.....

6 Like Violence, You Have Me

[28 Jan 2004|07:12pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

you logged off unexpectadly
i was a bit frightened
and still kind of am.
whats up?
[<3]

i can hear the simpsons theme music in the other room
and smell the scent of dinner cooking in the kitchen
i only wish that my dad was here
after all these years
im willing to forgive
and forget.

its kind of odd for me
its not just one of those 'he's gonna pay for my ticket so lets forgive all hes ever done' things either...

he's my dad
the person that assisted in the making of what i am now
and no matter how much i deny it
he effects everything i do.

imisshim.



i havent talked to you in a long time
and you decided to just call up
to hear a voice on an answering machine
and even though i promised myself i wouldnt
i did

thanks for calling.




side note: my mom = my hero.
<3


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<3

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[28 Jan 2004|12:17pm]
[ mood | excited ]

i love that odd feeling i get when i think of it
stepping off the metal machine to the ground below
the ground thats so familiar
the ground that was once home in a far off time
the ground that never ceases to make me smile
the ground that never ceases to make my heart stop
home

5 more months...


god dammit.



heh



i'm finally happy
cant you tell?

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[28 Jan 2004|08:44am]
[ mood | amused ]

im telling my dad tonite
that its only $373 to go home
in June.
[buy it now, he'll get a better deal]



$373 dollars more than i have right now...



bah.


*sigh*

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[27 Jan 2004|09:07pm]
[ mood | touched ]

Thanks to Katie for the lovelly layout. I heart you like whoa
<3 x 10291809283091820938





i have a star inbetween my thumb and pointer finger
and a '<3' ontop of my hand.

i love it.

<3

g'night everyone.


'sleep tight'

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[27 Jan 2004|08:03pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

Jessi...

i have 200 couches where you can sleep tonite.



if you'd like to join me on one of them
i'm sure i wouldn't mind...
neither would the ghost underneath my bed.


he might poke at you


just poke him back


you'll be okay.





we'll fade out
into the unknown
and sleep tight

on the two hundred couches...

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[26 Jan 2004|12:11pm]
i've been trying to choke back all these eye sweats
but sadly they've come to haunt me today
fucking emotions...



i need a hug
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[25 Jan 2004|10:24pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

i'm growing cold
i'm growing tired
i'm growing lonelly
i'm growing fast paced
i'm growing sad
i'm growing fine
most of all
i'm growing up

i'll meet you at the mall of america
if you bring shoe laces and a neck tie
we could be pressed up so close
in the midst of the summer rain
but it never rains in the summer
whats that you say?
thats right.
i heard you.
stop.
right.
now.

i'm gonna bury myself until i'm found
bury myself alive
but of course only until you someone find[s] me
just take this pill
and swallow it down
like you've done with all the photographs we took
they now lay on the bottom of your stomach
as will I before this ends.

and it ends
it ends
it never ends.
and it never ends.

we all sing the songs of seperation
and we watch our lives bleed out through
...and so on and so forth.

you make me want to scream
but in a good way
she said
and i felt it
i felt it down in that spot that only fuckers talk about
the only below your chest
and above the back bone.

that place where you like to hide
and poke at everytime you feel is right.

i'm taking you home
and your gonna love it.
and im gonna love it.
and we'll wear gloves made of silly string
and eat pie until we choke.

choke
choke
choke.

i bid you good night
and eat out my heart
on a silver platter
and watch you as you
take second helpings
and i'll sit in the room
with you in my hand
and we'll drink lemonaide
until its all we can stand
and each of us will die
as we sit and we mope
about love lost and sigh
because of the slope.

dont lose sight of it
just go

i'll take you home
i'll take you home
i'll take you home....

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[25 Jan 2004|09:46pm]
[ mood | lonely ]


i'm taking you home with me...and there, we will lean into the misty haze of the moonlight sunlight starlight.


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[25 Jan 2004|02:47pm]
[ mood | jubilant ]

Got my cell phone fixed...
lets make text massage love
1 907 952 3149

thend


btw: i think we're alone now

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[23 Jan 2004|02:07pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

i've been counting the minutes to see you
my heart is in knots
my stomach is turning itself upside down
and my eyes have been trying hard not to tear up

...thank you.

<3

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[23 Jan 2004|12:02pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

3 more hours...

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[22 Jan 2004|09:46pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

i'm about to spill my guts
words are coming out at random

remember when we were young and the days lasted so long
and no problems were around, we just did what we knew how
now the world has changed so much, look at what we've both become
i've been holding something back from you all this time

i'm about to spill my guts
words are coming out at random
i'm dizzy, and weezy, i'm feeling uneasy
i don't know if i'm alright
alright

i could tell you how i feel, but you'd think it isn't real
and you're all i think about, you're what i can't do without
you have been my very best friend for the longest time
i've been holding something back from you all this time

i'm about to spill my guts
words are coming out at random
i'm dizzy, and weezy, i'm feeling uneasy
i don't know if i'm alright
alright

you can't beleive it after all this time

i'm about to spill my guts
words are coming out at random
i'm dizzy, and weezy, i'm feeling uneasy
i don't know if i'm alright
alright

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[22 Jan 2004|05:49pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

one sentenced entries rock the masses
from here to Talabasis
thats right bitches.

but what else could i say
other than a sentence or two
to describe how i've been feeling latelly
i'm completely speechless about the whole thing.


catch me
or i'll fall over from all of this.



But i'm burnin'
i'm gonna make it alright
it's no fun living without you
you wrote the story of my life...

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[22 Jan 2004|12:04pm]
[ mood | loved ]

i think of you way too much

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[21 Jan 2004|09:18pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]

this is so much more than that...

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